Where did my love go? Or where exactly has it been to?

Anger won the battle last night.

I cannot keep letting these short fuses of mine go off to the one i love.
Yet, its uncontrollable.
It happens when I grow closer to ONE, i give and receive, shared and care.

I hoped that I was understood, yet i never realize that i was the one who misunderstood.
Truly enough, saying is always easier that doing it, but it doesn't mean i wouldn't try to outcome it.

It is not fair for him to go through all these blow outs when he has done nothing but showed me his 'version' of care and love.

I keep telling myself to not expect too much when sometimes he only can give what he can.
And sometimes too much can make someone (like me) become very selfish, needy, and controlling.
Yes, I admit, i would always win an arguement.He had said sorry for the 10th billionth time last night and I told myself after driving home, THATS ENOUGH OF MY ATTITUDE!

I cannot win every single thing. (And no baby, you're not stupid).
A million times I've wanted to let go of things because of my selfishness, yet, I know if it was you, you wouldn't have.

I cannot let go for something that he knows i can let go or change.

Tonight is another night, and soon, there would not be nights or days like these.
I've gotta make things right, now or never- right?

Be patient with me baby, I know you've always have. (:

We have future plans, and I know we will go through everything to achieve it :D