I was just wondering today,
at the same time i was talking to my mum about how when I was still small,
I hid at the back while my dad was up front waiting to pick my mum.
The both of us made a pact to cheat my mum that I wasn't in the car.
We both giggled as we reminisce that moment and I laughed at her silly reaction.

Just another mother-daughter day out (:

It got me thinking how much my dad means to me within that 16 years of my life and how lucky that many others got to see their fathers for many more years. How they experience the love of their fathers. How jealous I am to know that their father are there to protect them when they need it, when they are there when others bring home boyfriends, or to just share that father-daughter/son talks and jokes and special moments like fishing and what not.

Some not so lucky people would envy those who actually had time with their fathers.

Maybe some fathers may not be the perfect father you'd expect to see in movies. But you cannot compare. They are still family, your father and they love you in their own way.

Eventhough the your whole life, you'd think your family doesn't love you, expect to understand you, but have anyone once thought of them? How they feel, how they were brought up, how they perceive things?

No one is to be blamed for some parents being narrow-minded or old-fashioned or traditional. If you give up trying to just give time to try and understand them, or let them understand you, nothing will change.

Nobody said its going to be easy, but if you are willing to try and pursue it further, things can change.

I wasn't as close as I was with my mum back then. I lost a dad to gain a relationship with my mum. That shouldn't happen with anyone else. Not that I do not enjoy this relationship now, but it should've happened long ago, even with my dad.

I still miss my dad, and thinking about what could've been makes me sad.
Knowing that I do not even have a single picture of me and my dad besides when I was a baby, makes me even more sad. I have nothing to look back to in my teen age years and say, hey, this was my dad and me when we.........

So, anyone who is reading this, no matter how much you loathe being around your family, at least give them a chance (: